Wednesday, September 16, 2009

The New & Improved Spaz Is Back!

I think I may be able to write again. Maybe.

After a long summer of not being able to pull a cohesive thought out of my head, I think I may be able to blog again. I think that maybe, just maybe, I'm ready to get back into the swing of things.

When I was young I used to think I worked well under pressure. In high school and college due dates and deadlines sort of thrilled me. There was just something about that last minute scramble in the wee hours of the morning, putting a project together and getting those finishing touches in just before the moment of truth, my body running only on adrenaline and caffeine until I could finally just let it all go once the assignment was out of my hands.

I lived for that crap.

These days? Not so much. And blogging sort of started to become an assignment. First it was all the blogging carnivals - Works For Me Wednesday, Sincerely 'Fro Me To You (I don't even know where to find that one anymore... anyone know?)... there were others, too. I had to blog, had to get my post up at just the right time, had to fill in my Mr. Linky as close to the time it was posted as humanly possible.

Then it was the statistics. How many readers did I get every day? How long did they stay? What keywords were they using to find my blog? Where did they come from? How could I get more? MORE MORE!!!

Finally, the straw that broke my camel's aching back, was the Nickelodeon Parent's Choice Award Nomination. I wanted to win win win!!

Except as soon as I felt pressure, as soon as I felt like I needed to get the stats up, get the votes, be a popular blogger... I just sort of shut down.

And thus, a blogging hiatus was born.

So now, I haven't linked up to a blogging carnival in months and my stats are in the toilet and I don't even know who won the Parent's Choice Award Nomination but it wasn't me. And now that all that pressure is off? I feel GREAT.

**It was Tropic of Mom - who is wonderful, btw!**

So here is my promise to all of you three wonderful readers out there. I won't ever let that happen again. Sure, I may link up to a carnival... but only because I really think I've got something to add to it. I'm blogging now because I love blogging, because I think I might have something to say, something to share, something that might make y'all laugh.

That's right, baby. I'm back.


Niccha said...[Reply to comment]

Nice one Spaz, keep up the good work. I've long given up hope that anyone reads my blog, I just do it as catharsis and to amuse myself. And maybe one day my girl might read it and be impressed that I bothered!

Karen said...[Reply to comment]

Nice to see ya! I'm hoping to get back myself soon.

Anonymous said...[Reply to comment]

YAY! I don't post much either, but I still like to read others'!

sarah said...[Reply to comment]

Welcome back! We missed you

Robin said...[Reply to comment]

Welcome back Spaz. It's good to see you.

DysFUNctional Mom said...[Reply to comment]

That's the way to do it!
Welcome back.

Anonymous said...[Reply to comment]

Glad to see you're blogging again, I love reading your stuff :)

Lucy said...[Reply to comment]

I blog for me and if someone reads it great, if not oh, well.

I can understand getting caught up in all the numbers, I won't lie, I do look at them from time to time but mostly I blog as therapy for me.

Glad you found the joy in it again and will be back doing it for you and doing writings from your heart, those are my favorites!

Tam said...[Reply to comment]

I really liked this post. IT was real and everything you wrote in it is so true. I think we all have been there.