There are times, and those times seem to be coming more frequently than they used to, when I have a strong desire to be able to control my environment.
Having three kids and a dog make that almost impossible. This causes me great amounts of stress.
See, I just want everything to be still. I want everyone to stop moving. I want there to be no noises, no changes in light, no phones ringing, no 9-year-old boy sound effects being made, no tattling, nothing.
I want to be able to sit with my thoughts and think them.
And it really makes me sad that I want it so badly, because it prevents me from enjoying my family as much as I should.
Perhaps I should look into prescription drugs? Happy pills anyone?
Well that was entirely unexpected.
4 days ago
